i had the most AMAZING weekend ive ever had in my entire life. it's rediculus..

you all suck. and it's been raining allll weeek. i love it :)

boys suck who cares.

bye<3

so..

it seems these days that everyone has a special someone.. why can't  i ever be happy. i'm starting to think that there is no one out there for me. :(  i can't move on. everyone i meet i always compare to you. and none of them compare. i will admit that 2 yes two of them have compared but i could never be with either of them. ever. maybe it's just because im shallow, or stupid i have no idea. but it makes me sad that I'm the only one without a special person. i've thought about giving up on everything, but that would only make things worse and in the end i still wouldnt be happy. just once i would like to feel loved and special. things arent the same around here anymore :( sometimes i think its better that way though. i have major trust issues and that may be why i dont have anyone. i pretty much only trust 2 people in my life and one is my best friend who i know i could always count on being there for me. and the other.. as much as i hate her, my mom. i just want to have someone to love me and call me beautiful and make me their world. i'll never be happy. nothing ever good comes my way. im such a mess and i don't even know what i want. i barley even know who i am. im so disorganized and a mess. i need to pull myself together and find someone for me. im not letting anyone tell me what i need to make me happy. im going to find it on my own. whatever i'm done complaining.

goodbye

i hate it here.

i love my friends. <3